[dropcap]I[/dropcap]'m not a big fan of soap opera's. I grew up watching General Hospital with my mom but other than that, I've never really been sucked into the drama on the small screen. Since I've been living with my parents in Dothan, I can hear soap opera theme songs playing in the evening as my mom sits in the living room and watches Soap Net. One theme song that I can't get out of my head is from Days of Our Lives when the broadcaster says, "Like sands through the hourglass, so are the days of our lives." I know it's cheesy, but there is a lot of truth in that statement. I did a post a few weeks ago titled, "A New Season" where I announced our plans for moving back home. Since then, I've come to realize that a better title for that post would be along the lines of "Transition Time." Our lives have not entirely begun a new season...it feels more like the month of September when it's still too hot to be considered fall. The past month has been filled with hopes, heartaches, and helplessness. I am doing my best to still see God's hand through all of the packing, unpacking, and miles that cause separation between my family. I miss having a home with Raleigh and the girls and when I'm in Montgomery our house seems more of a stage than a place to take off my shoes. As our days slip like sand through the hourglass, I silently pray, "Is it worth it?"
I know deep down it is. I see the worthiness of our work and the bonds of family that are strengthening. Raleigh and I are learning how to meet each others needs better and I know this time of living in separate cities is going to have positive impacts on our marriage. With such limited amounts of togetherness these days, I've truly begun to re-evaluate how I spend my time. Because, just like sand, our time each day can slip away.
What I am slowly learning is that I need to stop. Stop pressuring myself to succeed, stop expecting life to be different, and stop wearing myself out. God is calling me to a place of rest. He is trying to tell me some important things but I've become too busy to listen. With this transition time, I'm having to learn how to see God differently than I did before. How I need to see him on the faces of small children each Sunday or my own children at bedtime. How I need to see him through family members that just want to help and through my husband's encouraging words over the phone instead of in person.
As for this space for truth-seekers to gather, he is gently asking me of its' purpose. While transitioning; I've spent a great deal of time reflecting and trying to discern his voice above my own. While I love to decorate these pages with frivolities of life; the heart of this space is to see God's light. I think that is what draws most of you here and I'm being reminded of why my hands yearned to write several years ago.
[quote]Our days on this earth are just as fleeting as sand through the hourglass. How are we going to spend them? Are we spending them for our own glory or God's? What actions do you and I need to take to make every day meaningful and full of praise to our glorious God?[/quote]
Till next time, let your light shine!