[dropcap]I[/dropcap]t was the humming sound the wheels made as it raced down the windy hill that made me feel like a kid again. My face was meeting the cool night air and porch lights were zipping by as I rode back to my destination. In this brief moment of play, my mind traced the years back to when I was eight years old and I would ride up the hill after school to dream with my best friend Susanne. On early October afternoons, we would catch bees in a jar and suck honey from the stem. As evening fell, just as it did here in present day, it was time for me to ride down the hill so I would make it home for dinner.
When I was eight years old, it was easy for me to play. Now, twenty years later, it's a challenge. Somewhere along the way, dreams met pipes and hopes met crushing walls. Early adulthood taught me not to get too excited because disappointment would soon follow and life was about work, not play.
But, today, on Day 4 of Living Out Loud my challenge to all of us that lost our sense of play is this: believe.
[pullquote_left]Psalm 37:3-4, “Trust in the Lord and do good, dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart[/pullquote_left]
Adeline and Maralee have taught me how to believe. From the moment we heard the word "twins" I believed that God really in truly heard my prayers. Lately, I've been going back to a passage that carried me through the early days of my pregnancy with them. It's Psalm 37: 3-4, "Trust int he Lord and do good, dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture. Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heart."
I think when we don't believe and allow ourselves to doubt, we aren't trusting that God hears the desires of our hearts. It's painful to admit, but what else is the root of unbelief? Jesus tells us that the way to heaven is to come to him like little children do. As I've spent the past two years watching my girls, it's easy to see what Jesus means by this statement:
Daily, children delight.
Their world is filled with awe, wonder, and delight. As Faith Hill sings, children live as "fairy princesses, sleep in castles, and believe in Peter Pan and bed sheet sails." They live in a land where Dad is always their prince and dreams do come true.
Why did I stop believing in all of these things too? Was it because the reality that life and love is hard and that is what got in the way? Or, did I stop believing that God really could move the mountains and cause the sea to part?
Last weekend, I had the amazing opportunity to hear Kevin Carroll speak about the power of play. When he was a boy, playing with a red rubber ball got him through the pain of abandonment. Over time, he carried this concept of play with him as he defied all of his challenges of childhood to become an individual that has worked for Nike, spoken for the United Nations, and visited nations where children only speak the language of playing ball. Kevin believes that play should be part of adulthood and work should be infused with play.
[box_light]Today, I'd like to ask you to think back to your favorite childhood memory of play. What makes you smile? How can you believe in this spirit of play as an adult?[/box_light]
Allow yourself to step through fear so you can experience belief. Give God your desires and trust that He has great plans for your life.
Believe in these things.
Till next time, let your light shine!
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Day 1 - 31 Days of Living Life Out Loud
Day 2 – Why?
Day 3 - Illuminate