I ended 2013 in the same spot I began: on a sandy beach shore. The sunset danced colors of periwinkle, coral, and midnight blue across the calm sea. Reflecting the year, my expectations, fears, and hopes had been whisked into the wind, looking completely different than how I had hoped they would be. Life had been lived, but not in the way I thought it would.
I began the year feeling scared and uncertain of the future yet tentatively saying yes to the idea of growing our family. Now, I'm starting 2014 with a baby in my belly, having made it to almost 30 weeks - the farthest along I've ever been pregnant. I'm still scared yet I know this gift is sacred.
In January, I still had our possessions wrapped in brown cardboard, hoping that our house would sell and we'd be out of our rental by summer. Our house never sold but it did rent giving us the opportunity to remodel a family home in the country; something we've always dreamed of doing. It's a year later and we are still in this rental; yet the boxes are moving to where we will rest our heads for many years.
I've changed jobs within the church, now ministering alongside women instead of children. It happened overnight yet my heart knows that this is right where I should be.
Last year did not go exactly as I expected but the trials turned into good things. Beginning a new year, I'm not making lists of goals and resolutions; hoping life will go according to my plans, my time. Instead, I'm admitting that my plans are microscopic compared to God's and he has good things waiting for me. Yes, good things will come out of hard things.
Give God this year. Give him 365 days, 8,760 hours, 525,600 minutes, and 31,536,000 seconds to mold you, grow you, and love you. Give him your desires, give him your heart. But don't expect him to gift you with your perfect plans, your check-list, your expectations. Expect the unexpected. Wait for him to show up and shake your life in a marvelous way; how only he can.
Expect good things for 2014. Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding. Follow him in all your ways. He will direct your path. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
Till next time, let your light shine!